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you used to wrap yourself in fairytales like a blanket.
But it was the cold you loved
Sharp shivers as you uncovered
The corpses of Bluebeard's wives
Sweeter goosebumps, as prince charming slid on glass slipper over your little toes
"A perfect fit"
But by the schoolyard, real princesses floated by you on fall winds
you saw the gulf between you and the rich girls and vowed to stop believing in fairy tales
But the stories were in you deep as poison If prince charming was real if he could save you
You needed to be saved from the unfairness of everything
When would he come?
The answer was a cruel shrug in a hundred fleeting moments
you learned you didn't have whatever magic turns a beast into a prince.
You surrounded yourself with the girls you would always resented.
Hoping to share their power and you hated yourself and that diminished you even more.
and then, right when you thought you might just disappear
He saw you
and you knew somewhere deep it was too good to be true but you let yourself be swept
Because he was the first strong enough to lift you
Now in his castle you understand Prince Charming and Bluebeard are the same man.
& you don't get a happy end unless you love both of them.
Didn't you want this?
To be loved?
Didn't you want him to crown you?
Didn't you ask for it?
So say you can live like this
Say you love him say thank you
Say anything but the truth
"What if you cant love him back?"