Aastha Pandey-Kanaan on Clubhouse

Bio

She/Her
Nepal born, raised in China 🇳🇵🇨🇳
📍🇨🇦 Surrey, BC
#FreePalestine 🇵🇸 #bodypositive
👩🏽‍🎓UBC 17’

My interests include Chinese Pop, the colour pink, Chinese food, cooking grandma’s / maa’s recipes, the chase / trivia, Taiwanese romcoms / dramas, tech: AI / IoT, cocktails 🥂, gundruk, sel roti

💜
i am a difficult woman, gladly.

many of us weren’t wanted
when the ultrasounds at the gynac’s
read - FEMALE
many of our parents had to shield us
throughout our lives, by restricting us
from being truly free

but our parents, they don’t succeed
cuz our society’s restrictions
make it impossible for
our parents to build that wall

many of us are given away
at the first opportunity that parents get
because their entire lives we were
labelled as the burdens they didnt need,
or maybe didn’t even want...
so many of us get moulded by society,
by our families,
friends,
to grow up thinking that we are here to serve another
family

and for the ones who weren’t moulded
into what society wants,
those whose parents were able to create a high enough wall around,
fall prey to their
colleagues; mentors,
the systems; constitutions and
the law,
many of us fall prey to
regressive systemic values
constituted years ago

and even through all these hurdles
regardless of our sizes, we jump
as high as the hurdles require us to...
cuz we’ve built endurance, stamina,
we’ve built lots of strength to fight...
to power through it all

the average me may be physically smaller
but the resilience we carry surmounts
all beings,
the average me may be
restricted from many
opportunities
but when given the tools not only do we
fend for ourselves but
for all of you too,
when given the knowledge we
make valuable changes in our worlds,
and yours...
yet our ideals and philosophies are
ignored by the majority

giving life is merely a small
miracle that some of us may
easily manifest,
but remember it is a gift,
one that we should be able to chose to use,
or not to...

but if we chose anything other than that,
we’re incompetent
if we walk a road that isn’t what society built,
we are burdens
if we question the illiberal ways
we are difficult

but I say so proudly
and loudly,
that I’m here to be difficult,
cuz if living on my own terms as the woman
i truly want to be,
is at the expense of your comfort,
then I’m here to be difficult,
i’m here to make you uncomfortable,
gladly. 💕