Nyra Goodhart on Clubhouse

Bio

I was emotionally and sexually abused for 15 years. And now I have severe 𝐂𝐏𝐓𝐒𝐃 & 𝐅𝐢𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐲𝐚𝐥𝐠𝐢𝐚.
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I currently have no access to any proper treatment for these conditions. I am just managing my symptoms using natural, alternative, DIY and/or at-home modalities. Letting life's magic work while living a love-based lifestyle, does help me cope. But it's very hard, everyday.
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I live with a host of mental health complications like depression, anxiety, hyperacusis, hypervigilance, rage attacks, panic attacks, orthorexia, insomnia, imposter syndrome, severe trust issues, etc. I also live with 24 hours of debilitating pain & severe nausea every single day.
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I am currently broke, but I hope to somehow be able to gather the resources to get access to psychedelic therapy treatment for CPTSD & Fibromyalgia. Auyhasca is also a possibility. These are the only really promising treatment modalities available for my conditions.
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I hope I can get to them on time for me to still be able to heal enough to revive my life. I miss being me.
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I used to be a public speaker, writer, journalist, philosopher, ethnographer, therapist, biohacker, yin yoga trainer, retreat leader & entrepreneur. I loved people and loved talking. I was about to write my book and do my podcast. I had been on stage all my life since the age of five.
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But now, I have so much anxiety, I can barely speak to anyone or write anything. The book and podcast have been shelved for the moment. I am struggling to just be functional. I can't even find the nerves to talk to a random amazon delivery guy on phone.
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𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐈 𝐣𝐨𝐢𝐧 𝐚 𝐫𝐨𝐨𝐦 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐨𝐧 𝐂𝐥𝐮𝐛𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞, 𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 a𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐲 𝐯𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤. Everyday I ✋🏽 only to ✌🏽️right before my turn! I have succeeded to speak up just once so far. But I am hoping to get better. I promise to keep trying. Everyday.
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With my family and inner circle, I manage to keep in touch through messages. But at the moment, I am able to express most only on Instagram. It's the only space where I am not experiencing much anxiety. It somehow feels safe to my fairly unwell brain.
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𝐈𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐚 𝐅𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐖 𝐨𝐧 𝐈𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐚, 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐢𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫. Hope you will!
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Thanks in advance and do take care,
Nyra
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PS. Please see if you can follow me because you want to be a part of my journey, and not just to get a follow back. That authentic encouragement and genuine appreciation may really help heal my heart and build back my trust. Looking forward to having you around!