I want to relax. I want to be open and honest. I want to have a safe haven in which struggle has no place, where I gain strength and rest instead of having it pulled from me. I want to stop being on guard all the time, and have a chance to simply be with someone who can understand our basic humanity without begrudging it. To stop fighting, to stop playing the game, just for a while.
I want to, so badly.
If I do, I soon am no longer able to.